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Favorite thing of the day… Five subjects, five email strings, one friend, the power of words creating a multitude of thought, action, decision, and support exchanged.

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IN to NC 9/31

Another large box packed.

Spinning tunes, vinyl and CD, desiring to fill quiet.

Will lunch with a friend today before heading to a gathering on her behalf, a birthday celebration. The majority of us joining are part of a book club that has been going strong for over eight years. Not all of us have been involved that long, but with the exception of two, this friend was instrumental in each of us meeting. We have all become friends. I wonder does she know, the gift she has given us. Realized on her birthday.

Weekend countdown to move: 3

IN to NC 8/31

Lunch today with a friend who will be celebrating her birthday Sunday. It may be the last time we share face time before I depart to all things NC. I’m blessed by a multitude of these lasts. Each I have felt, gentle flicks upon the skin, a call to attention physically to what I am also feeling emotionally. Fully present in each moment.

Gratitude.

 

Snap!

I’m on a mission.  Purpose driven.  Big stuff. Balancing the heavy with humor the best I can. Reading helps, as does rest.  Snacks, too.

Until very recently I held this notion that I lacked focus.  For me this notion propelled my normal flits of thought into chaotic mind-chatter, compelling me to believe I wasn’t contributing anything of purpose back into my world.  Crazy talk, I tell you!  My self isn’t always generous with me.

It seems my higher-self decided she’d had enough of me and offered some clarity. Snap! The thought materializes. I see and hear it!  A realization that I have in fact been intently focused.  A wonderfully long-term focus. (Mom)-hood.  Huge moment of expansion.  Relief.  Maybe what I contribute does matter.  Perhaps I am offering something meaningful.

A clarification of focus:(mom)hood:

I make my choices and try to move in directions that best support raising my daughter.  As I believe processes to roll, I get the privilege of always being her mommy. I am meant to encourage, support, and amaze in her growing years, so that she might step into her own strong, equipped and enlightened self.  There is meant to be a degree of separation to come.

Back to my Snap! moment.  With the relief, and clarification of my role as mom, I had to quickly assess my perceived lack of focus.  It seemed this meant I could reframe the story I kept telling myself, and sometimes others.

If I’ve always known my focus:(mom)hood role would cease in its current form, then it has been important to seek and determine what’s next. The what-comes-next process has been a long running research and contemplation effort. Numerous interests, the desire to learn, while remaining gainfully employed full-time, coupled with the focus:(mom)hood project… well, see above. Chaotic mind-chatter!

I wavered in this shiny new Snap! revelation.  Could I really reframe my lack chatter? Call in the troops.  I share Snap! with her, asking that she call me out if I wasn’t speaking a truth.  Could she see me in the Snap!?  Was I being honest in this contemplation?

I hear an excited “Yes!” followed by affirming and loving statements as to how she sees me, has always seen me.  Seems my Snap! offered my best pal some joy as well. The conversation closed. Relief and something more continued.

I gently, humbly, with total reverence, acknowledged and gave thanks for the moments of grace I had been bestowed. And started reframing my story!  So continues the journey.